~ My sister's Keeper ~

我爱哭，却非轻易对他人落泪之人；在电影院哭？NO, NO，我尽量不会这么做。。真正让我忍着不号啕大哭的大概也只有"Love of Siam", "The Pursuit of HappYness" 和 昨天的"My Sister's Keeper". 哭了，而且差一点就嚎啕。电影末，我们三人居然会不过神，眼眶湿湿红红。。这让我想起了Auntie Lily的过世 - 一个妈妈冲回火场企图救孩子，被塌下来的储水箱压毙，最后剩下了焦尸。再后来，大众开始发现住家的设计似乎有些不合规格，偷工减料，就此也许不会再有诸如此类的事情发生了。接下来，身边的人尤其丈夫和孩子处于悲恸状态，甚至开始埋怨上帝怎么允许此类事件发生？原来是因为我们虽处身人生阶段却仍未接受和了解人生其实囊括了生，老，病，死。生-是为什么都好，因为人人有使命；老-是因为要生就要成长，要成长总得会老；病-是因为身体本来就是软弱的，生带来，死带去；死-本来就是人生的其中一项元素，只不过方法不同，时间不同，状态也不一样，那不是重点。重点是人固有一死，或轻于鸿毛，或重于泰山。同理，天灾人祸也是人生的元素之一。。谁说生命是理所当然的？死亡，至少让人学习珍惜。

Was it right or wrong to allow the sicks to get into a relatioship when they do not even know when they might stop breathing? Well,there is no such fixed point..

The Sister's Keeper Anna helped her sister Kate to "die" which was her biggest wish.

"Kate wants to die, she told you but you never listen..." Says the brother Jesse to the mother. Sometimes we tend to ignore what we have heard, what others need but blindly do whatever we thought are right. But is it truly error-free? It's hard to let go but we have to.. most of the time.. And this is so called LIFE..

~Discomfort~

Some people find discomfort in sharing their thoughts and feelings which might bring them no good when they are in tremendous stress and need a vent to blow off repressed emotions. Improbity happens is a daily issue in the world, however it just discomforted me when I found one exist around me. I’ve been trying to look for excuses for such person – there should be a reason for someone to behave in any ways… But does it justify the way you treat people including putting them in hurts? I may not be a perfect person, I might have hurt someone in any moment but I guess most of the people will try their best to minimize any downsides towards others… Naively I think the world should / can function in a fairness doctrine however it doesn’t seem to work out… There are people who profit in others’ expense in any ways. Such ways of living shall be inhibited some days in any ways.